There was once a time when I couldn't love myself. I couldn't stand myself. I couldn't live with myself. And you'd wonder what went wrong. How does one go from being so appreciative about life and all that's in it to wanting to run away from herself. I wondered too.
They say that you should love yourself first before anyone else. This is your life pack. Your lifebuoy to keep you afloat when you otherwise fall off your boat. This is your buffer of love, used especially when the love you usually receive feels insufficient or probably non existent anymore. This store of love is meant to build you up and help you redeem yourself when all else fails. But what happens if you don't have this store of love ready? What happens if you didn't anticipate losing the love you usually receive from loved ones. What happens if you took love for granted and now suddenly you can't find it anymore?
You find yourself in a big black hole, where nothing matters, everythings cold, including your heart and this void let's you feel just one thing, numb.
And numb is not a feeling anyone should go through.
Love yourself. Love yourself so much that another person's love for you or lack of it cannot bring you down. Know that you deserve to be loved, because you are beautiful inside and out, you deserve great hair days and warmth in winters, you deserve long drives and holidays, you deserve extra sprinkles and shots on the house! You deserve all this because you are worth every star in the sky. And if someone tells you that you aren't or makes you feel otherwise, you tell them to f**k off! You go right ahead and tell them all that you know you are worth.
You are worth so much more than they make you feel. Love yourself more than anyone can love you, for people leave, and I've learned that the hard way, and when they leave, they take their love with them sometimes and leave you behind.
Do not, I repeat, do not think for once that you can never find love again or that you cannot be loved. You are loved, immensely already, by the millions of particles that make you you.
Love yourself before looking for love elsewhere. Love yourself no matter what! You owe it to yourself.
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