Three nights

I'm okay, I'm alright
I just needed three nights
Quiet.
You have to understand
It's not easy communicating all day
Especially when there are so many voices
In your head, in your bed,
When there are more people inside you
Than beside you.
I just needed some time
To rewind, Unwind.
To leave behind,
To remind myself;
I'm okay I'm alright
I'm fine.
I just needed to feel.
Unreal.
It's not easy walking around
With two faces; One facing you,
One facing the ground.
We needed a break, both of us
In the same body, tired, restless
Careless.
We needed to settle our differences,
Accept our flaws, fix our walls,
Break our falls.
How can we be enemies in the same fort?
Holding each other captive to what seems to be eternal damnation.
We'll be fine, trust me, we'll be good.
Take care of me and I'll take good care of you.
There's nothing more I want than to fix you.
Quiet.
I'm okay I'm alright.
This is why I needed three nights.

Release

There isn't much you can do with grudges
There isn't much you can fix when it isn't in your hands anymore
There's no point worrying when all you could have done is done
Breathe
Release

Anger does nothing but unsettle you
Jealousy makes you more insecure than you already thought you were
And greed will never satisfy you.
Calm down
Release

Over thinking swallows you
Not thinking numbs you
Not feeling, intentionally, will hurt you the most
Feel
Release

Loss changes you, for better or for worse
Being found changes you to a greater extent
Stagnancy won't do you any good
Travel
Release

Sometimes you're surrounded by the world
Sometimes all you have is yourself
Often your alone in a crowd
Realize
Release

People do you wrong sometimes
You've disappointed yourself sometime
You wish some days could be erased and forgotten for good
Forgive
Release

Does it matter?

Does it matter to you that you don't see me anymore?
Does it matter to you that we don't speak?
Tell me, does it matter that we don't laugh?
Does it matter to you that I don't talk to anyone now?
Does it matter that I don't sleep?
Doesn't it bother you even one bit that I'm not dreaming of you anymore
Or maybe thinking of you, does it?
Do you think about me when your mind is at ease?
Or am I a thought that causes you unease?
What have I become now inside your heart?
Does it matter that mine is a cold an empty part?
How do you sleep knowing my pain?
Or do you not know? Then all is in vain.
Does it matter that my smile is different?
Or that my eyes don't look the way they used to when I did smile around you.
Do you care, though, that I'm traveling in my head
Sometimes when I'm lost in thought, while sleepless in bed?
Some nights the moon won't shine and those nights are easier.
Some days the sun comes out from behind
the clouds and I swear,
I miss the rain more than you.
Or maybe the other way around.
But that doesn't matter...at all to you.